“Do not try to be pretty. You weren’t meant to be pretty; you were meant to burn down the earth and graffiti the sky. Don’t let anyone ever simplify you to just “pretty.””—Things I Wish My Mother Had Taught Me | d.a.z (via girlsjunk)
“We have ripped the veins
and buried the bones
of our city
we once loved
watered with tears
flowers to grow.
Life is not so simple.
Pain is not so easy.”—Michelle K., Munich. (via michellekpoems)
I learned a valuable lesson about myself tonight. Perhaps I have not yet taken the necessary time I have needed to heal myself from the lies I’ve bathed in over the years. The lies I’ve been told, and the lies I have told myself. I have wasted so much of my time in my youth and teenaged years trying to compensate for the lack of self esteem that plagues me, yet I have done nothing but search outside of myself for those things. Ironically, every single time I search outside of myself, it leads me no where. Even worse, it leads me to feeling even more poorly about myself. Please do not waste my time, or my energy. I no longer have the desire to pour myself into people who see me so superficially that they neglect my heart and the lion that I really am on the inside. I deserve so much more than that. I deserve so much more than a second glance. I don’t see myself as others see me, but at the LEAST I know that I am worth effort and time.
And I am done wasting mine. No more years of temporaries. No more years of hurt, and endless painted arrays of agony. Not going to happen again.
This one is for me. For Emily. For the beautiful soul I know that I am.